Shia LaBeouf addressed allegations of physical and verbal abuse, first raised in a 2020 lawsuit by FKA twigs, during an appearance on actor Jon Bernthal’s podcast Real Ones. Watch an extended excerpt of the interview below.
Without addressing FKA twigs by name, LaBeouf said, “I hurt that woman. And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people, and many other people before that woman. I was a pleasure-seeking, selfish, self-centered, dishonest, inconsiderate, fearful human being.” In the two-hour sit-down, the actor delved into the aftermath of the allegations going public, in which Twigs claimed that during their brief relationship she endured violent attacks and emotional distress, had been knowingly infected with an STD, and witnessed the actor shoot stray dogs to prepare for a role.
LaBeouf shared that he was suicidal when he first faced the accusations. “I went and loaded up a gun and sat on my table,” he recalled. “I was gonna kill myself.” After receiving advice from once-disgraced stars like Sean Penn and Josh Brolin, LaBeouf was convinced to seek treatment for alcoholism and psychological issues. He credited a group of “60 dudes” that meet weekly for Zoom calls, bike rides, and beach meet-ups as well as his unnamed accuser, whom he calls a “saint” that “saved my fucking life.” He admitted, “Had she not intervened in my life and not created the avenue for me to experience ego death, I’d either have a really mediocre existence or I’d be dead in full.”
“I’m in the tribe of the fuck-ups. I’m a very public sinner, a very fallible person in the public sphere,” LaBeouf conceded. “What I think now my purpose is, is to not do… the other examples that we’ve had of how to navigate something like this — which is to go after the woman, or try to win a court case, or get back into a fucking movie or like get back on at all.” Not completely devoid of his ego though, he set himself against other celebrity outcasts saying, “I need to be useful. And when I look at this #MeToo environment, there’s not a whole lot of dudes that are taking accountability.”
Aside from leaving his accusers’ names out of the conversation, LaBeouf did not shy away from the specifics of his past actions. “I fucked up bad, like crash-and-burn-type shit,” he said. “[I] hurt a lot of people, and I’m fully aware of that. And I’m going to owe for the rest of my life.” LaBeouf later acknowledged that he has a “long list of people that I need to make amends to.”
The tone of the interview was a bit more remorseful than LaBeouf’s other recent public statement, where he rebutted a claim by Olivia Wilde in an interview with Variety that seemed to imply he was fired from her upcoming directorial effort Don’t Worry, Darling. In response, LaBeouf released private messages, letters, and video correspondence between himself and Wilde along with an email that claimed, “I quit your film.”